First Post - Beginning of Purgatory
Until purgatory ends, I'll be posting here online, separate from my other blogs.
Hopefully 'she' will not notice that there has been an additional blog in my profile. But then, she usually doesn't notice such things, I think.
So, Purgatory has started for me, since we're in the stage of the relationship now where she officially gets a 'break' to think whether she really wants to be with me or not.
In the meantime, I can either break down completely and die, or be positive about it and take a different approach.
This blog will be a registry of my daily ups and downs as I live in Relationship Purgatory.
Why would I want to do this note-taking, so to speak?
Because it helps, as it's probably my only sure way of venting.
Because it helps me make sense of the irrational and the seemingly nonsensical.
Because deep inside, I think I'm pretty scarred.
And because the web accords an anonymity that nobody from work, play, school, community centres etc. will recognize this as coming from a guy living in Purgatory. Why? Because I need to maintain this melodramatic lie of normalcy, maybe because this will help me get over this crazy period of my life.
Undoubtedly I will probably live until I'm 40+, and maybe laugh when I encounter this blog again. Or maybe not.
Hopefully 'she' will not notice that there has been an additional blog in my profile. But then, she usually doesn't notice such things, I think.
So, Purgatory has started for me, since we're in the stage of the relationship now where she officially gets a 'break' to think whether she really wants to be with me or not.
In the meantime, I can either break down completely and die, or be positive about it and take a different approach.
This blog will be a registry of my daily ups and downs as I live in Relationship Purgatory.
Why would I want to do this note-taking, so to speak?
Because it helps, as it's probably my only sure way of venting.
Because it helps me make sense of the irrational and the seemingly nonsensical.
Because deep inside, I think I'm pretty scarred.
And because the web accords an anonymity that nobody from work, play, school, community centres etc. will recognize this as coming from a guy living in Purgatory. Why? Because I need to maintain this melodramatic lie of normalcy, maybe because this will help me get over this crazy period of my life.
Undoubtedly I will probably live until I'm 40+, and maybe laugh when I encounter this blog again. Or maybe not.
posted by keninabu at 9:31 AM
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